When you look at the three photos above, what do you see?
A girl with a big smile?
A girl hanging out with her friends?
A girl having a good time?
When I look at those three photos…
I see a girl who spent each and every day fighting to get out of bed.
I see a girl who was so broken, she didn’t know how to get through the day without physically shaking because her emotions were getting the best of her.
I see a girl who wondered when she was ever going to feel “okay” again.
My name is Haley, and I can personally tell you, you WILL feel “okay” again — whatever that may feel like to you.
But, I can also tell you that it’s okay to not be okay.
I look at how my life was exactly one summer ago, and I was so NOT okay.
I was going through a lot, to say the least.
I battled every single day and said, “I just want to feel okay again.”
Now that I am (for the most part) on the other side of those feelings, I realize there was a reason for that season of life I was in.
There’s a reason for EVERY season of life we go through.
When I look back at that time, it’s hard to not be difficult on myself and tell myself, “You should’ve done better on (insert specific thing here),” or say “You shouldn’t have done (insert specific thing here).”
Gosh, I had some criiiingy moments.
But, the most important thing is that I LEARNED so much from not being “okay.”
I learned that…
I am strong enough to get out of bed when it feels like the world is laying on top of me.
I learned that I am strong enough to get through the endless days of never-ending emotional chaos.
And I learned that I am strong enough to “be okay” again.
Don’t get me wrong…
I still have hard days.
I still have days where I struggle to not fill my mind with regrets of my past.
And I still have days where it feels like my emotions are getting the best of me.
But when that happens, I know one thing is for certain:
It’s okay to not be okay…but only for a little bit.
It’s time to get up;
Recognize the depths of the places you’ve been;
And look to the heights of the places you’ll go.
Until next time,